February 20th, 2010
I can’t remember when last I had a day that involved doing nothing at all. So maybe I didn’t smash my baby toe into painful oblivion for a bad reason after all. I’m so quick to think that everything that happens is me sabotaging myself. At least I’m not one of those who think that the Universe is some external force that is doing things to point me in the right direction all the time. I also don’t think that everything is a negative sign or that I there is anything that controls me and my life besides myself. I also had a day of waking and sleeping, that made me realise that what I do is not better than thinking someone thing or someone external controls my life.
In me knowing that I am in control of everything … I have programmed myself to think that I create signs in the form of self sabotage, that point out all that I have to change and do differently.
So, slamming my foot into a table is no pain at all compared to the constant pain I unconsciously put myself through … heavens … I’m even doing it now!
This whole year is all about having fun … it’s about being goalless and putting me first! Now I know that putting me first means being kind to myself … especially now! I’m not going to try and figure out why I sabotaged … because hey, it doesn’t have to be sabotage at all. I’ve rested today and know that I needed it.
I also had a chance to see how well I do know my body! Ok, so it came at a price, but a lot of times that is how I learn my lessons. So … everyone forces me to take a pain killer … which would be fine if I had have taken tablets throughout my life. You see … I haven’t taken anything more than tissue salts and vitamins for the past 12 years, so can you imagine throwing some hell-of-a painkiller into my system! Well, it sure made me forget about the sore toe because it felt as though my tummy lining had been slowly eaten away!
I can’t believe how everyone around me thinks I’m so irresponsible because I won’t go to a doctor or take pain medication! I’ve said it time and time again … I took years to know my body and when I need a doctor or medication … trust me .. I’ll be there!!!
What a great lesson to learn … I do know my body! I give my body the time it needs to heal and … most importantly … I love the way I heal!!
Baba is here keeping me company! Text guy is pretending not to check on me too many times and I’m not beating myself up in any way at all … so even from my bed with nothing at all to do … I’m still doing my life project!!!! Woo hoo me!
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Ah… the “natural” products. Then again, I think that so very many people forget that cocaine is a “natural” product.
I guess far too many people ignore the signs when they are upon them. But I honestly believe that far too many people take pills because they’re told to and no other reason.
Think Marilyn Manson summed it up best, “a pill to make you numb, a pill to make you dumb, a pill to make you anybody else… but all the pills in this world won’t save you from yourself…”
Think we really should just stop once in a while and listen
A lot easier said than done however.
Hey Robbie
From the late response, I think you can see that I took my own good advice and spent the day resting and recovering from all the things my body has put me through … or is that what I have put my body through … hmmmm … pity that it’s one in the same! Terrible not to blame … lol
I do have a sad story about a very spiritual woman who though that she didn’t even need modern medicine to the aid of a doctor … what started as a simple headache did grow to her losing her life due to her refusal to either listen to her body or have any faith in modern medicine at all.
I’m not one who shuns it in any way and trust me … I’ll be the first to be at a doctor when i know my body needs it! Just ask my x-rayed and scanned leg!
I was also one of those people who had a near psychotic episode after taking the very natural ‘st johns wart’ … so I’m not a great advocate for saying that things natural heal everything either … I guess I’m just saying … listen to your body, because it is you and no one should know you better than you … right?
Happy to say I’m on the mend … besides the pesky sore tummy that won’t let me forget about what not listening can do … ouch!
As for everyone and going to to the doctor. For some reason unknown to me, everyone else seems to think that by going to the doctor and then taking a pill or two that everything will be just fine. Should you not, the world will end.
Truth is pain isn’t always a bad thing. It tells us stop doing what ever it is that is paining us… (just wish it wasn’t so effective at times). And believe it of not, most things will heal themselves without any intervention. I tend to believe that when you have one that won’t you’ll know to go to the doc.