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Published February 6th, 2011
These past few days have been pretty memorable for ‘project me’.
It’s not often that I get myself into a space that I battle to get out after a good dose of self reflection, a good chat with a friend or some ice cream. Granted, I didn’t try the ice cream bit considering it’s sis’s wedding this time next week and part of my crisis is how mean I’m being to myself about my lack of excessive weight loss. Did you note I said excessive? Not that I’m not losing, but when a downer hits it seems that nothing is good enough.
If I didn’t have the fighting spirit, the belief that I can manifest my reality and that everything is as it should be, the ‘project me’ would not exists. So to find myself in this WTF space where I am considering finding a day job … well then this day surely needs to be noted because it surely will be refereed back to … after I have gotten over myself and found success of course.
NOT that I don’t feel successful already and I know I have been going on about this a bit and it even sparked some debate on my Facebook page. Yet, the truth is that some self esteem does lie in the money we make. It’s brilliant that I have the recognition and the respect I do. It’s incredible that my personal blog has grown in such numbers and I have international followers. It’s awesome, it’s incredible, it’s magical, it’s unexpected, it’s … not paying the bills!
Oh boy … it’s come down to this … money issues!!
No doubt that puts a damper on the entire day. Even one spent with my precious friend, Hustler Girl, who was as supportive and encouraging as ever. So much of what she said is right and I know that this has nothing to do with me not living what I am passionate about … that’s easy. This is about putting myself out there with a big voice and using the whole of my being – my wisdom, my teaching ability, my presence, my personality and my way of living.
It is unique … I AM UNIQUE! Yet there’s something I’m not doing in my highest esteem and stressing out, pushing harder or being unkind to myself is certainly NOT going to fix it!
It’s Sunday and under normal circumstances, when I am having a shit day, I would do some sort of work to make up for anything I might be missing. Well isn’t that just being mean to me? It’s Sunday … I’m allowed to rest! The workaholic in me is obviously freaking out … but it is Sunday and most of the world takes at least one day and gives it all to themselves.
I’m saying it, but can I do it in the space I’m in? Well, bookmark this day and hold your breathe for an update on day 403.
With courage, consciousness & a sense of humour
Published January 28th, 2011
It’s as it states. Step aside, don’t disturb, make way, don’t talk to me, don’t breathe near me, I’ll make my own tea thank you very much … I’m working!
It’s bad when I contemplate turning down spending time with my very dear friends even when they say all laptops will be present and everyone will be working. My questions is will they be working in silence. That’s highly unlikely when My Knight has a rambling of Chuck Norris jokes that he keeps throwing into the silence of my work zone and Greggie burst out laughing from behind his computer, knowing the curiosity is going to gnaw away at me until I know what the giggles are for.
I’m Libran, I chat a lot! So you know when I put my blinkers on and Greggie has to ask if I’m ok that I’ve hit the zone. I like the warning he gave My Knight about The Zone, not that it stopped the Norris jokes.
The focus and determination has a purpose though. Firstly, with going back to gym and taking a herbal concoction of tablets to help strengthen my body, I’m feeling more alive again. Let’s not kid … I can’t sit for too long still and I am overdoing it a little, but I can see the vision of success before me. I can almost touch it and I know what I have to do to get it.
There are changes! In my energy and my direction and my plans. Some of them I still have to work on before I send you in the direction to check them out. Oh, that’s the other side of me … the ‘everything must be perfect’ side!
There’s a lot on my plate, yet somehow I’ve managed to focus on what’s important at the moment and remind myself that I will take care of each thing as it comes along. I won’t lie and say they aren’t niggling at the back of my mind and maybe all the focus on work is distracting me a little, but let’s make hay while the sun shines, right?
My friend Robbie keeps reminding me that the only thing constant is change. There are two kinds of change, those you make happen yourself and those that life throws at you. I’ve decided to put that working girl helmet on and deal with those that I can make happen myself so that when life’s changes come along I know how strong, ready and adaptable I really am.
Tonight is a big business meeting that is going to take some bravery on my part. Today is divided between revamping a website, writing a blog that’s been weighing on my creative spirit and not getting myself hysterical that I have to go out with my little sis to sort out her bouquet for the wedding.
My workaholic phase comes with a warning and the irony is that I’ve woken up today with a back that’s telling me that if I don’t pace myself it will do it for me. So I’m done blogging and I’m actually going to chill before I create chaos for myself. Trust me, that’s the toughest thing you can ask of me … project me is alive and kicking!
With courage, consciousness & a sense of humour
Published January 8th, 2011
I definitely need to find me one of them ‘how to chill-out for dummy’s’ books. Once again, no amount of practicing or faking it (the chilling out that is) ever gets me totally prepared for a sudden burst of workaholic mania. Unfortunately (or is it fortunately?) my back has been really tired the last few days, so pushing it is out of the question. So what does a girl do when the brain had every intention of editing at least 2 chapters of the novel and the body has every intention of chillaxing?
Who says cats can’t be loyal? Continue reading
With courage, consciousness & a sense of humour
Published January 2nd, 2011
I have confessed it once before and I’ll state it again: hot dog Sunday was stolen from The Jock when he told me about his hot dog Friday that he shares with a few mates. Isn’t that just a brilliant idea? One good enough to steal I would say.
Hot dog Friday kidnapped and dressed up in its Sunday best, I had all the friends over today for hot dogs, wine and champagne is plastic cups and board games. Continue reading
Published October 8th, 2010Greggie says he has such a good laugh because I say I’m going to do a quick blog and it’s this long story even if I’m blogging from my Blackberry or if my back is killing me. It’s not my fault, I’m going nuts not being able to write.
I’ve been getting a few spurts of flack for not making a plan to write and then I realised one of my greatest frustrations in my career. The whole event tipped me over the edge and Greggie and my mom were exposed to the rantings of my mind. Well it was actually something new for my mom to see, but Greggie and I do it all the time. We just babble on and on to each other so we can hear all the madness of the mind. Continue reading
Published September 6th, 2010I have 15 minutes to blog before my weekly dose of TV shows and my butt goes numb. The only reason why that’s a crisis is because I’ve been a social hermit for the past few weeks and now I’m finding myself having to catch up on a lot of ‘Hello’s’.
I’m sitting and not complaining about my sore back. Isn’t that amazing? Okay, I can’t overdo it but today I can feel that I’m partially human and that everything is going to be alright. Do you know how exciting that is? Continue reading
Published August 2nd, 2010
Garfield is my favourite character and of all the moments I remember about his lazy ass character, I remember the day he tried to get away from Monday so he posted himself off to another country. What do you know, thanks to the time difference and his pathetic attempt at running away from his Monday issue, he had two Mondays in a row.
I seemed to have manifested one of those Garfield Mondays. I’m not even relating it to wishing the weekend was any longer because I was in total workaholic mode and did nothing social what-so-ever. Continue reading
Published July 28th, 2010Today literally feels like 3 days in one, but then again this year feels like it should have been spread over at least 3 years and it’s just over half way.
My morning began with needing to get my totally non punctual mother to my permanent make-up appointment on time. She was having a facial while I was having ink seeped into my eyelids by a fine needle and a buzzing machine. Does that sound painful enough? I hate being late. It does something to my blood and it is only perpetuated at the thought of having my eyes tattooed. I could feel my blood boiling inside, only for my precious mother to tell me that I’m driving like Michael Schumacher. Parents!! Continue reading
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7 CommentsPublished July 16th, 2010(This one’s got adult content guys, you have been warned!)
It’s hard to imagine that you can have an extremely eventful day without even getting out of bed.
I took the day off from going into the office for a number of reasons. The last of them was actually the greatest of all because I had no idea today would be so freaking cold. While the rest of South Africa was doubling up on jerseys and wrapping scarves around themselves to keep warm, I literally stayed in bed all day. Continue reading
Published July 3rd, 2010It’s been a whole day of teaching from 8:30 until just through the first half of the Germany verse Argentina game. Yep, at the moment those things mark time. Greggie asked me the strangest question tonight when I worked out that our Tuesday night class clashes with a semi final game of the 2010 world cup soccer. He asked if helping people heal or the soccer was more important … what a silly question, of course the soccer is more important. Continue reading
