Project Me

The dancing crew

I’ve been thinking about how this day would go for ages. After 9 years of being mommy to my little businesses, I left them in the safe care of my very dear partner.  Well, the day was a little more dramatic than I realised!

I started it the way anyone should begin a new chapter in their lives … I overslept!!!

The day continued in the furthers possible way I would have expected the first day of new chapter to go!

I procrastinated … for the better part of the day! I haven’t had a boss in years, but I can only imagine what it must be like to not know how to pass the time in a day and worry that your boss might check up on how much work has been done. Still sticking to my word that on some days … I’d fire myself!

Procrastination is good!
I cleaned out some of the strange contacts I follow on twitter.
I built up enough courage to write back to ‘scar my heart guy’ and kept it simple. Me … the girls of an overdose of daily allowance of words … sent a simple three liner! He responded and I feel as though I have no one in the streets the I couldn’t greet if I saw them, no matter what our history has been! That is such an awesome feeling on a project such as this.

Greggie and I had a toss up about who got to put the weekend pics on their facebook … he won! But I did promise a pic from the weekend …

I had and off the wall chat to the Jock that reminds me of why we are friends. That sparked and interesting train of thought actually … I did spend a while thinking about the number of times I could have run away from the friendship. I can be such a girl at times and my first reaction is to get rid of the person the second I think they are going to hurt me. I’m a touch cookie … I just need to remember that when my heart thinks its more tender than it is! The Jock has helped me toughen up through our friendship. So I pondered a whole lot of past relationships and stuff to procrastinate a little longer.

Oh … I have a cool party on Saturday night. The theme is the 2010 soccer world cup. For days I have been planning to go as a fan, but the more creative Greggie got, (because of my competitive nature of course) the more unusual I wanted to go. While he searched the net for weird and wonderful costumes and procrastinated some more, it finally hit me … a reporter! I so need to be a reporter, with my hair in a bun, my glasses on and a sly plot to have free access to all the team’s change rooms! Alright … I know it’s only a party, but a girl can dream!  So the idea is planned and the outfit is slowly falling into place, including mic and clipboard and all … so excited! I love dress up parties …

Money …
I’m not officially making any yet! Um … no … I’m not making any yet! I know that all it takes is bravery to throw myself out there on my part. Today, being the first day that Lifeology is providing me with an income, I had to work out my expenses. I’ve never done that before … I’ve spent 9 years living from when the business settled it’s bills and could pay me. So I’m freaking out … not because I don’t have the ability to make it, but because I’ve dreamed so big that I have to take a deep breath and remember who I am.

Well, actually … have I really dreamed that big?
I’m doing what I love to do with all my heart and I’m following my heart … hmmmmm!!

At around 5pm I had gained enough momentum and confidence to have a long chat to Greggie about our dreams, the business and mostly … our capabilities. Wasted hours were all made up by a kick ass conversation that reminded me of some very important things … I should be scared! I should be excited! I should be too afraid to even work at times!!

On the other hand, I’m thrilled to feel a whole lot more like me because my baby toes isn’t broken after all. It’s healed enough for me to be able to get back to gym tomorrow. I ate healthier for a day, despite Greggiie worrying that I was starving myself … I think my tummy was just starving because it’s the first day that I ate less than double the amount of calories for the average me!

I’m still loving project me … I’m still loving blogging … and today I realised that both of those things are good enough to make everything perfect!