I don’t think I’ve ever shared my mother’s dry sense of humour with you. She has this extremely quick whit and says thing that would usually mortify or completely offend someone, yet everyone rolls around in stitches. Needless to say, when the team from Regim A asked how I was doing my mother informed them that everything was cracking up except my skin. She then keeled over in fits of laughter and sent me on my way to have my very first Regim A skin peel at my newest sponsor, Beauty Worx.

I had my facial yesterday with my very special skin specialist, Nicky, but I waited for the day after the peel to make the big announcement.
Although I was in the beauty industry for nearly 2 decade (eeeekk … that’s old), I haven’t had a treatment in years. It’s always like the shoemaker’s daughter and I forgot how good it is to be treated by healing hands. Not only did my face revel in the peel, but my body relaxed for the first time in ages too. The peel, which is made up of acids from natural ingredients such as apples and milk, has this tingling sensation and considering I started with a 40% peel I’m very proud of my little pain threshold.

Literally when I woke up this morning, the only thing that didn’t feel as though it was cracking up was my skin. I remember my concerns at the beginning of the year and how I used to hide my skin under layers of base. Besides a little spot on my chin and the scratch from kitty on my nose … I am so thrilled with the results.

I have to admit that I’m having a totally poofy day though! Yesterday was our usual Tuesday night and a whole lot of my weight and eating issues re-emerged. Well, they didn’t exactly just arrive because I’ve kind of being hiding it from everyone. I could see the look of surprise on Greggie and my mom’s face when I shared the space I find myself back in. It’s a vicious cycle … I can’t exercise, can’t go shopping for my healthy food, feel guilty to ask for money when I haven’t been working as hard … it goes on and on. So it all spilled out last night and I had a good look at myself.

There is always that empty feeling in the pit of my stomach after I have shared some truth and have to make my way forward. I keep remind myself that if I have stuck to so much of ‘project me’, then I can do this too. Then, in the next breath I remind myself that I have been trying to do it for years and years and I feel all down in the dumps again.

The Facebook friend cancelled this morning and I was totally annoyed even though his excuse was that he was feeling sick. The Jock called and I didn’t want to see him after the phone conversation that was filled with work and worries. I could hear his surprise when I called a for a rain-check but I really feel that I did what was best for me. Now the guilt of both events has kicked in and feel like a total cow … but my skin still feels fab

I have finished editing 2 chapters of the novel, Ephineah … have I said how much I love my story? It’s very quiet workwise, even though we do have a meeting about the long awaited children’s website and some exciting plans for next year. It still hasn’t been making me feel better about what to do until the end of the year, so the timing for the final edit for the book is perfect. Greggie did warn me not to push it when I told him that a friend of ours had offered to do the final edit. She’s going on leave on the 15th of December and we all know the crazy deadline space I can get myself into.

My back has a new kind of niggle and I’m taking a new tactic of simply reminding myself that I’m not a raggedy ann doll who is going to snap in half with one wrong move. So a bit of action needs to be taken and on Monday, with the help of my most precious friend, I am going to buy the things I need for water aerobics.

That’s what I’ve surrendered to now … asking for the help, speaking my fears and knowing I’m not alone! After all, my desperate cry is what got Regim A and Beauty Worx on board as incredible sponsors and look where I am today. If I can do that with my skin then I can do that with all of me!

Beauty Worx contact details: Call Vilene for appointment or more info on +27 11 796 1422