So I’m completely public and have no issues with the world knowing much of my business. Of course Mr Unexpected is the complete opposite. We meet in the middle by him respecting what I do and me not saying too much. I think that’s fair enough.
It has made blogging a little trying today and now it’s hovering around the end of the day and I’m forced to do it. It’s not that I don’t have a whole lot of magical things to say, but it’s how to say them to prove to Mr Unexpected that I totally respect him.
It was most obvious around Facebook change of relationship status time. I’m so happy to be in this new space of having my +1 and I’ve been on about being single in this blog for long enough, so of course I want to update my status. Mr Unexpected doesn’t even have that depth of info about himself but seemed to get my need to announce it.
I caught him reading my blog and my heart did skip a beat, but he didn’t throw his toothbrush into his bag and leave, so that’s the start of a few good steps.
All this talk and it’s obviously official.
So this is the ‘project me’ part! We are both so scared for our own reasons. We always carry a bit of baggage from one relationship into the next and I think both of our concerns are around how different we are … because we are. On the other hand, we have some of the best things in common. I can’t believe I’ve found a man who loves country music as much as I do! Yay! Totally yay!
We talk, we giggle, we snuggle, we make each other tea and he let me blog while I let him watch his cheesy youtube clips. He’s chilled out in my home and sometimes I think him and my mom get on better than him and I. I loved his fat chat with my brother in the kitchen and made him lunch to take to work … all the little things that I’ve waited so long for.
I know every0ne is dying to meet him or know a little more about him, but this is going to be serious baby steps. I’m so proud to have totally fallen for a friend that has been right under my nose for years.
Oh my greatness … I feel like this post is totally scatty! It is, isn’t it? Lol … I guess that’s because it’s really impossible to explain these things, but trust me, I’m loving every moment of it and I could so get used to this!
With courage, consciousness & a sense of humour
For a girl who hides behind food as the comfort too when things change, it’s been one hell of a week. There have been so many changes and umpteen reasons to eat.
Then there are the reasons not to and most of them come in the form of someone else. The someones like my mother and Greggie who have had to deal with the first few insecure dinners. Then there are my friends who just cheer me on with so much love. My Twitter family, especially Dezy D who I don’t know how to thank for the cheerleading and awesome messages. Slowly I will thank all my sponsors and introduce new ones, because they have been so incredible too.
There is something about taking on your greatest fears with the world watching and cheering on. I have tried to tackle this weight issue for as long as I can remember, but all of a sudden there’s something very different about the space I’m in and there is one fundamental person that I am blessed to have by my side.
I was cleared for gym months ago … like February already, and told that water aerobics would be best for me. I was super brave and got the number of the trainer and called him almost immediately. On the other end of the phone was a friendly voice that I felt I hand know for years and he told me that he was waiting for me to set up a complimentary private session to help me and show me that I would be just fine in the water. I put down the phone and never called back … until I had finally announced ‘project body’ and knew where the one downfall would be.
As the phone rang, I prepared myself for that conversation that began with, ‘you won’t remember me …’, but I never go the chance because Patrick Tendani had been waiting for my call. The enthusiasm with which he jumped at supporting me as a partner of ‘project body’ should have been my first warning sigh.
Holy moly … I had images of a few water aerobics classes that looked a little more like synchronised swimming than what I ended up diving into (almost literally). I challenge anyone to take on water aerobics! It’s tough dude and I keep on telling Patrick that I’m gonna drown (or die) but I keep fighting on. I know that if it weren’t for his support, special messages that get me to gym and praise me once I’ve gotten home after an hour of tough stuff and cheering me on from the sidelines, that I would be in a pile of tears and hating the idea of ‘project body’ already.
I know my lazy ass attitude about getting up in the morning and most of it is because I sleep far too late, but when the wake up call is 5:20 am and it’s in the pool at 6am … trust me, this butt has been in bed early. Once again, thanks to those ‘waky waky’ messages that I receive before the birds are chirping and the, ‘you can do it! cheers, I have had an incredible first week of ‘project body’.
Patrick’s support when I stood on that scale and measured that fat was beyond supportive that by the time I had to show the numbers to the world, I didn’t feel as though I was going to slit my wrists. But it was his cheers and applause when I lost 1. 4 kilograms in this week that makes me feel like the most supported girl in the world.
Food hasn’t been as tough as I thought, but that’s because of all the cheering and asking ‘how’s the food Jo?’ …
I made it through a lavish Yule dinner and learned a special lesson. I watched my day and kept the majority of my calories for the evening. Then, I had much smaller helpings and no one even really noticed. I savoured everything but didn’t indulge in anything … and the next day I was in the pool again.
My body is loving the journey, despite finding gym 100 times tougher than I ever would have imagined. My theory stands true though … all you need is one person to believe in you … and I have Patrick!
With courage, consciousness & a sense of humour
Slowly people are beginning to admit that they might like a few more country songs than they realise. I don’t know if I’ve said that my pet hate is when people say they don’t like country but it’s all over the radio stations and everyone’s singing along to some serious country music. Lady Antebellum for one and Faith Hill, Jewel, Carrie Underwood … the list goes on.
I grew up listening to the good old Dolly Parton, Kenny Rogers and Willie Nelson from when I was a little girl, so this certainly isn’t a phase. It wasn’t until I was introduced to Keith Urban that I fell madly in love with Country and not until I started to put faces to beautiful men like Mr Josh Turner on your left, that I was sold for life.
So I shove country in everyone’s face and they can either deal or they can’t. But there are the few moments when someone turns to me and thanks me for the song I posted on Facebook or introduced them to in my blog.
One of those friends is Amanda! Mands and I went to high school together and didn’t do much bonding in those glasses, pimples and braces days but as Facebook threw us back together, something changed. All of a sudden we are a part of each other’s lives and it’s been a joy to feel the friendship grow. So, when Mands said that she was loving the country music I posted and asked for a playlist I was totally flattered and knew we would be friends for life.
I’ve thought about the playlist often and each time I do, I think it should be set aside for weekends. Then on weekends I think it should be set aside for a day when there’s nothing to blog about. With my life, is that every really possible. Today, I have been needing to listen to so many songs for so many reasons and each one has given me the gift I needed. The whole time I wanted to make a list to send to Amanda, but I kept saying ‘later’, until I heard one particular song … and I knew it was time!
So my dear friend and whoever dare be touched by the words and messages behind country music … this one’s for you!
1. Rascal Flatts – Unstoppable
2. Leanne Womack – I hope you dance
3. George Strait – I saw God today
4. Keith Urban – Good in my shirt
5. Carrie Underwood – Before he cheats
6. Martina McBride – Concrete Angel
7. Reba McEntire – Turn on the radio
8. Sugarland – It happens
9. Billy Currington – People are crazy
10. Jewel – Satisfied
11. Lonestar – Mr Mom
12. Blake Shelton – Who are you when I’m not looking
13. Rascal Flatts – Bless this broken road
14. Keith Urban – Stupid boy
15. Martina McBride – This one’s for the girls
16. Craig Morgan – What I love about Sundays
17. Thompson Square – Are you gonna kiss me or not
18. George Strait – Breath you take
19. Kenny Chesney – Boys of fall
20. Lady Antebellum – Just a kiss
21. Keith Urban – Kiss the girl
22. Carrie Underwood – Mama’s song
23. Tim McGraw – Live like you were dying
24. Rascal Flatts – I melt
25. Keith Urban – Raining on Sunday
26. Lorrie Morgan – What part of no
27. Reba McEntire – If I were a boy
28. George Strait – Troubadour
29. Rascal Flatts – My wish
30. Tim McGraw – My little girl
31. Joe Nicols – If nobody believed in you
32. Zac Brown Band – Colder weather
33. Tracy Lawrence – Find out who your friends are
34. Martina McBride – Anyway
35. Carrie Underwood – Last name
36. Lady Antebellum – Looking for a good time
37. Joe Nichols – Tequila makes her clothes fall off
38. Rodney Atkins – Farmer’ daughter
39. Josh Tuner – Your man
40. The Band Perry – If I die young
41. Billy Currington – Must be doing something right
42. Clay Walker – She won’t be lonely long
43. George Strait – She let herself go
44. Carrie Underwood – Jesus take the wheel
45. Taylor Swift – You belong to me
46. Justin Moore – If heaven wasn’t so far away
47. Kenny Chesney – You and tequila
48. Jake Owen – Barefoot blue jean night
49. Brad Paisley/Carrie Underwood – Remember me
And of course … the latest idol …
50. Scotty McCreery – I love you this big
Mands … this is just the tip of the iceberg and as songs inspire me and make me laugh, dance or cry, I will continue to share them with you!
From two beautiful Souths …
With courage, consciousness & a sense of humour
Yule is definitely one of my favourite Pagan festivals and one that seemed to arrive sooner than expected. With everything else going on, I didn’t realise that it was upon me so soon and literally organise everything in a day. Luckily Paganism is all about heading out into the park and grabbing whatever nature has literally dropped off for you as decorations. Hence the gorgeous table decorations.
I have to admit that the eggnog was an absolute labour of love but I did seem to get nods all round! Yay! In the pic you can see the traditional yule log that is kept from the year before (the evergreen tree that is in the house … Pagan tree) and that piece is burned the year after. Because it’s the first year I have done this with my friends, we kept the log decorated and will start the burning tradition next year.
I must thank our dearst Chris-t for the awesome turkey, stuffing and gravy that made the evening an extra special treat.
Of all the things that got me all excited about sharing with my friends … it had to be making the yule log (the edible one!!)
I love the team effort that makes up these incredible nights.
And there’s Hustler Girl’s Ponkie icing the log!
Thank you so much to my special friends for embracing these times with me and welcoming the Yule traditions into their livees!!
With courage, consciousness & a sense of humour
I don’t feel up to blogging and I’m admitting it! Not only am I doing that … I’m not faking it and shoving in a song … I’m being kind to me!
Thank you for letting me be me …
With courage, consciousness & a sense of humour

























